Silence Has a Body Count 🔇

"The opposite of courage is not cowardice; it is conformity." — Rollo May

There were years I wore quiet like armor.
I called it peace. Others called it composure.
But deep down, I knew what it really was: self-protection.

“If silence speaks louder than words, what is your silence saying?”

My silence didn’t mean I was okay.
It meant I didn’t trust the room.
Didn’t trust the people in it.
Didn’t trust myself to be heard, or to handle the weight of what I might say.

“Everyone brought wine. I brought generational silence and a fake smile.”

The worst part…
I convinced myself I was “above it.”
That maturity meant detachment.
That strength meant biting my tongue until it bled.

But unspoken pain has a way of leaking into the atmosphere. It shapes your posture, your tone, the energy in the room. People feel it even if they don’t name it.

Your silence is always saying something.
The question is: Is it telling the truth?

Your shadow speaks in symbols.
In patterns. In pause. In the ache you keep dismissing.
The 30-Day Shadow Work Journal is a place to listen… gently, honestly, bravely.

Your inner work.

Choose one area of your life…
relationships, work, inner dialogue…
and ask:
What am I not saying that still needs to be heard?

Then, don’t rush to speak it.
Write it. Sit with it.
Let it breathe. Let you breathe.

When it’s ready to come forward, you’ll know.
And this time, you won’t confuse silence with safety.

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Let’s talk about it.

Have you ever stayed silent to avoid conflict… only to feel the conflict grow inside you?

Or held back truth so long it turned into resentment?

You’re not alone.

Drop a line below. What silence have you outgrown?

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All in all.

Stillness can be sacred.
But silence used to self-abandon is a slow betrayal.

Let your words catch up to your heart.
Let your voice return to your body.

Not all noise is chaos.
Sometimes it’s how we come home.

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