When Logic Starts to Taste Like Poison
“To tell the truth is to become beautiful, to begin to love yourself, value yourself. And that’s political, in its most profound way.” — June Jordan
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I learned early how to explain the bruise.
How to tuck the sting into a story
that made everyone comfortable.
The script was simple.
They didn’t mean it.
I’m too sensitive.
This is how love feels when it’s real.
Each lie calcified into bone.
Each excuse turned into marrow.
By the time I looked in the mirror,
my reflection spoke in someone else’s language.
And I listened.
Because silence seemed louder than truth.
But silence is never empty.
It’s filled with what you swallow.
“When you spend years explaining away your own discomfort, self-betrayal starts to sound like logic. Gaslighting becomes internal. Healing starts where you stop justifying what hurt.”
The mind will build an argument for almost anything if survival depends on it. When your earliest safety required you to explain away harm, the explanation didn’t just cover the wound. It became the skin around it. It became your reference point for truth.
That’s why healing feels disorienting. You are not only pulling out the lie, you’re dismantling the scaffolding that kept you standing. And yet, the body always knew. Discomfort is the one signal that refuses to die. It bends, it hides, it disguises itself as logic, but it never dissolves.
The turning point comes when you stop rehearsing excuses. When you let yourself say, without edit, that hurt me. It doesn’t need an appendix. It doesn’t need a disclaimer. The sentence can stand unaccompanied, and still carry all the weight it needs to.
From there, healing isn’t about rewriting the story. It’s about telling the part you never allowed to be heard. Because the silence you kept was protection. And protection isn’t the same as presence.
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