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Despair Loves A Closed Room
Despair rewrites thought so every path ends the same. Name one new truth, and the mind begins to move again. That small shift is how freedom starts.
Nov 17
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Ryan Puusaari
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Trust Built With Nobody Watching
Life gives feedback long before it gives clarity. Each time you move through a hard season without abandoning yourself, that lesson lands deeper than…
Nov 12
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Ryan Puusaari
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Rejection Saved Me From Myself
We cling to certain stories about ourselves because the alternative would mean admitting how often we returned to the same harm. Rejection can threaten…
Nov 10
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Ryan Puusaari
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October 2025
Addicted To Being Right
Ego can lie with posture too. When I soften the body and let the truth stand on its own, the need to win loses its appetite.
Oct 29
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Ryan Puusaari
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I Missed My Own Life
A scar records. Attention turns that record into instruction. Each time we observe without bracing, something new gets written.
Oct 27
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Ryan Puusaari
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The Habit of Hurting Myself Twice
Regret hides beneath performance. It wears improvement like a mask. The moment you stop performing for forgiveness, the shadow finally tells the truth…
Oct 24
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Ryan Puusaari
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I Trained Myself To Vanish
Speaking your truth regulates the nervous system. The body trusts what it can say out loud and survive. A small sentence can mark the edge where silence…
Oct 22
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Ryan Puusaari
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Too Late Was A Lie
The next version of you doesn’t appear on a clean slate. It forms while you’re still shaking. Start anyway, and let today be part of that entrance.
Oct 20
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Ryan Puusaari
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Forgiveness Wasn’t The Fix
Tears release pressure. Change releases patterns. If today asks for both, start with the one that steadies your hands, then move the chair back to where…
Oct 16
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Ryan Puusaari
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The Wound That Followed Me
Suffering doesn’t dissolve when we run from it. It thins, waits, and reappears disguised as resistance. Healing begins when recognition outlasts…
Oct 14
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Ryan Puusaari
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I Forgot How to Need
Most of us survived by shrinking the experience instead. Healing asks for the opposite. It asks you to stay inside the feeling long enough for it to…
Oct 13
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Ryan Puusaari
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Inheritance Worn as Obligation
There’s a difference between love and loyalty. One frees you to be real. The other keeps you rehearsing your worth.
Oct 8
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